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| SUMMER!!!!!
This means no school, no studying, no stressing, and hopefully no drama. Yeah I will hold my breath.
I can't believe college has gone by so fast. I am already a senior....man I am just so taken back by this. For one thing I am really excited because that means only 1 more year of studying but then I am terrified because I am on my own for good. I know there are people out there that are on their own and I give them all the respect and credit I can give, I am only imagining and I am freaking out. I think it will be good though, no parents around to run my life anymore. 
I want to get a dog, Doberman, when I get out of school and I don't even know where my job will take me so can't really say where I will be living. I hope to stay in St. Louis and if not that then maybe Chicago. I think it would be cool to live in the city, plus I have close family there and that would be fun!!!!
This summer I am working at the Hilton downtown for my final internship. It requires 450 hours.....yikes! I will be making good money though, yay for that! I have a couple things already planned out as well.
1. My Grandma's 75th birthday is this coming Saturday and we are throwing a huge party. All of my family is coming in town for this so it's going to be crazy but fun!
2. I get my wisdom teeth out either the 27th of May or the 6th of June...ah. A lot of my friends have been through this so I am going into it strong. I will be put under which is pretty cool. My dentist has been saying that I have room and we should leave them in for now, well we have waited a little too long, so my mom and I went for a second opinion. She said I need them out and since I waited long, my roots have grown to my nerves or close to them, which means even more of a risk for possible nerve damage. We will just have to see what happens.
3. I am going to Dan and Julie's wedding. I am so excited. It is going to be so beautiful and yet so weird because my friends are getting married. Actually a lot of my friends are getting married and it seems like we just got out of high school. Ah! I am so happy for Dan and Julie though, congrats guys!!!!
4. I am going to Florida in June for my Grandpa's 1 year memorial, which isn't going to be all of a happy trip. Yes it will be fun because I get to see my Grandma and Aunt but going to the memorial will be hard. Lots of crying I am sure :(
5. I TURN 21!!!!! July 23rd..... I am going to Springfield where most of my friends are. I will be bringing some of my friends from St. Louis with me because it wouldn't be the same without them. I am really excited and I know my friends are as well, lol! They are sick of having to sacrifice not going certain places because I am not 21. I appreciate that so much, it means a lot to me! 2 months and we can go anywhere!!!
6. And I will be hopefully making at least 1 trip to Springfield to go shopping for townhouse stuff with Valerie!!! I miss you! But I am so excited for this coming year, we are going to have a lot of fun girl!
Other than that.............IT'S SUMMER!!!!!
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| I am going to try something that Valerie did and just let everything out......by the way Val I was inspired to do this because you wrote on your xanga in this way that I believed really helped you. I love ya girl!
You're my everything
I hope you grow up soon
You're so beautiful
I miss you so much
Why have you punished me for most of my life? Why couldn't you treat me like everyone else?
You're so fake
Stop smoking so I can kiss you all the time.
I wish you two would just stop being stupid and just work it out. You both are stubborn.
You're a genius/weird and that's what makes you who you are.
I want the hot weather to be here now
I am proud of you for admitting what you did was wrong but you will never be the same person I once thought you were.
You will grow up to be one of the most amazing people I will ever know.
Do you think you will get away with everything you have done? You won't.
I will always love you, cherish our friendship, and will always be there for you no matter what. You are my true friend.
You once told me I was your prize. Well you are mine as well. I love you.
You are so strong and I admire you for who you have become and want to still become even though you have been through some hard times. I can't imagine how hard it is for you, but I am here for you always!
I am so glad we have become friends (beer pong partner)
Do you like me? I don't even know you that well.
Am I your friend or do we just hang out because we have mutual friends?
I see you judge girls for trying to look hot, but then I see you looking at yourself in any reflection that comes your way, that's what I like to call being a hypocrite.
Stop being such a bitch.
Why can't you get off your ass and go out with us.
I think you have become some what of a whore.
You are so stupid you can't even see what is going on right in front of you.
Half of me believes that you can change, but the other half thinks you will always be the manipulative lier you are. I hope you know that you can change, you just have to want to. For your future, I hope you do.
Will you ever invite me to hangout with your friends? I do everything for you.
You have the biggest butt in the world....it's a good thing.
Kitty Kitty.
You don't deserve that belt. You're disrespectful.
For some reason no matter what you do good or bad, I am still attracted to you.
I still think of you and wish you would leave your girlfriend.
Are you really in love with your girlfriend?
I enjoy talking with you.
Ah I feel better......thanks Val!
"I said no cookies rrrrrrrrr"
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| So I recently went through something that I thought I would never go through. It all started before winter break and continued through. It took a tole on my concentration with school and my moods at home. I was angry a lot at home and mean to my family for no reason. It wasn't intentional at all it's just that what was happening outside of the home was really getting to my heart.
I lost a best friend, who I thought would be true to me forever. I guess I didn't really know her that well. My heart has been broken and is finally starting to come back together. I guess it's because she isn't in my life really anymore. I think that is for the best too. It's been hard though, I miss the stupid little things that really made the friendship what it was. I know that I will always remember the good times we had. But I know I can make new memories with other good friends and even with new friends. I am so thankful to have had Valerie and David to help me through this. Even though they were affected by this too, we were all strong together. Even my 3 other suite mates were great, they listened and even though the were caught in the middle they were still great listeners. I know that my truth was the real truth and that makes me happy. Lies were told to other people and that's fine because I know in my heart that Valerie and I were fighting for the same side and it was the right side. Other than this crap drama that has been happening in my life.........
School has started again and that means back to homework and studying. I am really excited that this is my last semester as a junior. I can't wait to be a senior next year! I just can't believe it has gone by this fast. I many goals for my future and am already starting on them. Even though I am taking 18 hours and working I know that I just have to concentrate and do my best. I am determined to!
A lot of my shows are starting back up again from being on a winter break themselves. I am really looking forward to LOST starting January 31st. I am super excited! This will be the 4th season already. Hopefully a great one too!
I wish everyone the best of luck on a new semester!
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| Hello all!!
It sure has been a long time since I last wrote. What has been going on in my life? To start, the semester is already over in a week and I can't believe it. It has gone by so fast, which is a good thing! I will be a second semester Junior already, wow! Before I know it I am going to be graduating.
This semester has been pretty good. Not too hard but not easy. Next semester I am taking 18 credit hours and I am not looking forward to that at all, but I need to do it so that I can graduate on time in May of 09! I have been looking into new places for my next internship this coming summer and I really want Hilton downtown. They are offering me a sales internship and I really think that would be a great experience. I am also applying for 2 scholarships this coming spring. One is for $5000 and the other is for $1000. I got a job down here in Springfield for the first time and I really love it. I work at the Pasta House and it is a lot of fun, stressful and hard work, but fun! The people that I work with are so nice too! Now of course I do get some tables that don't have very friendly people but what can you do?
My sister Natalie has been down here for her first semester and she loves it so much. She is in a sorority,Tri Sigmas and is making a lot of new friends too! I am glad she is down here with me because she is like one of my best friends, plus we share clothes and it is easier to get home because we drive together! I am on the Relay For Life Committee this year and it is going really well! Our event is this coming April!
I can't wait for Christmas break. I really need the break because this past month has been so stressful. I am going to Florida for a week to see my Grandma and Aunt that I haven't seen in a couple of years. I keep in touch with them a lot though! We are also going to the Disney Attractions which should be fun! I am working a couple of days over break at the Sheraton too since I won't be here in Springfield making money.
Other than school and work nothing really new in my life. Still in Tae Kwon Do and as a black belt now!! I am going for a stripe on it this Christmas break and I am pretty excited about that too! No new boy in my life, still trying to figure out what is going on with the old one. We have talked and hung out a bit. He is too busy to have a relationship right now but I don't think I wanna wait until he isn't. He has school, work and diving everyday. Plus there is something I still can't figure out about him. He has changed since last semester when we were dating. He seems more sad and not as bubbly or funny. He had a rough summer with his family and I really think that is what did it, but I know there is something else and until I figure that out I am just going to move on.
Well hopefully I will post sooner than before. Hope everyone does well on their finals and has a wonderful break.
HAPPY HOLIDAYS!!!!!!
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